New JOB and others

Hi Felas...

Long time no see ya :D how r u? hope u find...

Hmmm, many story to tell until am confused, where should i start the story?? Anyway, just skip this bullshit.

You must be dont know what's wrong with me for the last 3 months, right? Many changes guys. From my school, my job, and others.

Now i work at HLN as a Sales and Marketing Executive. Yeah, quite difficult to understand because i never be a sales before, but we have to learn, haven't we?

Sitting on my own table and facing akward moment everyday with all staff in this office (you know am new)

Sometimes i feel so stress until one day i cried by myself at women toilet. Try to do the good things to other people but somehow, they always have a reason to ignore us and we cant complain.

My mom said am to idealist. NO AM NOT! am just thinking, if i can be nice to them, why they cant? something wrong with me? but HELL, i dont give a shit anymore.

Also, i have moved to another college. Have i told you before about this ? Mmmmm, am forgetful :D But yeah, i move to UNIBA from UIB. Hope i can finish my school ASAP.

About boyfriend..nothing to say. Still same since a year ago. ALONE.......

I dont know why.. even i try to open my heart for someone else but still in the end i feel not good. i become a selfish girl and this condition make me sad :( until when ??

If talk about boyfriend, i only look for someone who has a good job and has his own things. Like personal car, a house and bla bla bla.... not because am materialistic but i feel no love in my heart anymore. Crazy ya -_-'' but thats what i feel right now..

Even a good guy come and try to stole my heart, it just useless ~_~ to hard to catch! And sometimes am afraid about this *____*

Long story short, now on am just focus to my carrier and school. After i can reach my goal, then i will think about to find someone.

Dear My Lovely Jesus,

Sometimes i dont know what i have done, please teach me so that i will not disappointed you anymore. Thanks for everything. I never thought that i could become like this before. I'm different now but i like it :)

Love you Jesus. Amin!

Oke guys, i have no much time. Many things to do in office :"(

SEE YAAA :D

Just another CRAP !

Beberapa minggu ini aku deket ama cowo. Dia sering bgt smsin aku. Orgnya manis. Secara fisik dia cowo bgt. Honestly aku suka. Yg bikin aku makin suka adlah dia seiman dan sama2 batak. Walopun dia blum krj lantaran kuliah pagi di slh satu univ di batam dan bulan 8 ini wisuda then baru cr krj, tp itu bukan masalah buatku.

Hell, aku bukan tipe cewe yg nyari cowo mesti ini mesti itu. Aku udh pernah pacran ama cowo yg udh serba punya dan bukan itu yg ngebuat aku tergiur. Dan asl para lelaki tw aja, hidupku sgt sgt berlimpah dan hidup mengajarkanku bahwa MATERI itu sama skali ga ngejamin. And it’s TRUE.

Dan aku ampe smpat mikir, gpplah ga cakep asl setia. Gpp blum krj toh rejeki di tangan Tuhan. Tp blum jd pacar aja udh ketahuan belangnya. Ke laut aja kamu massss ? Wkwkwkwk

Sial bgt rasanya… mending aku nyari pacar yg cakep dan tajir skalian. Toh smua cowo sama aja kannn ??? skalian aja aku hunting bule ato tebar pesona di tempat krj perkara cm mw dpt cowo tajir. #ITU BAHASA KASARNYAAAAA

Ktimbang kita udh brusaha yg terbae buat dpt yg biasa2 aja, trnyata sama aja,dan ujung2nya cm nyakitin prasaan aku?!…….wekssssssssss!!

N u know wut ?? itu smua ngebuat aku tiba2 muak dan berkomentar *SHIT!! JUST ANOTHER CRAP!!*

Iya..just another crap…krn trnyata dia sama aja kyk cowo2 lain yg dgn gampangnya mengumbar kata2 manis. Hell!! Aku bukan tipe cewe yg mgkin kamu anggap sama dgn yg lainnya.

Fu*k!! bru aja nyoba buat buka hati buat org lain tp udh di kecewain. Coz the fact is……. am not the only one.

Memang sihh, aku ga lebih baik dr cowo2 itu tp paling nggak aku setia, dan aku tulus!!

N u know God, tiba2 air mataku jatuh :’( dan aku harus kembali menghapusnya “sendirian”…………… !!!!!!

Gbu all :)

Kangen Punya Cowo

Sejak kejadian 1 tahun kmren, ga tw knp mpe detik ini kok masih susah buat aku utk membuka hati ?

Tp skalipun cowo itu udh baik, bermateri, tp knp kok hatiku masih kyknya ketutup? apa krn dia blum org yg tepat utk menyentuh hati ini? ga tw jg -__-'' Skrg aku jd org yg ga mudah percaya ama omongan cowo. Org bilang “I love you”, aku malah ketawa. Pdhal mgkin aja itu emg bener2 kluar dr dlm hatinya. Tp yah, bagiku smua cowo sama aja…

Tp setelah 1 tahun berlalu, aku kangen juga punya cowo. Slama setahun ini aku cm ngabisin waktuku hura2 breng teman, HTS ama cowo (krn aku jd takut utk pya status dan aku GA MAU terikat), sibuk krj dan kuliah.

Kyk gitu slama setahun, kangen juga pya someone yg bs aku ejekin. Kangen pya someone yg bs marahin aku klo aku bandel. Kangen ke pantaiiiiiiiiiiii bareng. Kangen kangen kangennnn...

Ga tw knp blakangan aku kangen punya cowo yg bs diajakin serius. Capek main2 trus. Pengen pacaran trus udh satu aja… ga mw yg putus nyambung ato putus2 lg.. pengen yg bener2 serius n bs jd my future husband.. yg trima aku apadanya dan mencintaiku ampe mati.

Kdg ada cowo yg deketin, tp saking kerasnya hatiku, cowo itu nyerah gitu aja dan akupun membiarkannya pergi. Krn prinsipku, klo seseorng menginginkanku, dia akan berjuang utk ngedapetin aku. Sygnya aku trlalu stupid, mana ada jaman skrg org yg kyk bgituan.

Berharap someday seseorg yg aku tunggu itu akan dtg. Menyentuh hatiku dan menghancurkan batu keras ini. Seseorg yg akan mencintaiku hingga kami mati nanti. Seseorg yg bs membuatku hanya memilikinya didlm hatiku.

Hmmmm, klo kyk gini critanya, berarti cowo itu hrus cowo yg super kuattttt. Ya,moga aja dia cowo yg pya kepribadian tegas, berprinsip, dan pantang menyerah. Pekerja keras, penyayang, dewasa, dan bersihhhh =)

Aku ga mw klo Cuma sekedar pya cowo. Umurku udh 23. 3 tahun lagi target buat merit.

Tp gmn klo seandainya aku udh nemu someone yg tepat itu, tp di perjalanan cinta kami, dia mlh prg ninggalin aku. Fiuhhh,mgkin aku ga akan pernah lagi mw mengenal yg namanya cowo.

Haduhhh,haduhhh!! Knp aku mikirnya udh sejauh ituuuuu ??  pdhal yg dicari aja blum dpetttt lhoo ~_~ huhuhuhh,am just too worried.

Gbu